does the guilt and self loathing go away?
I asked this on my other thread, but thought I'd make it a new post because I want more answers. Even if I succeed in quitting, do the feelings of guilt go away or will I always cringe at my past? I hate the mother i've been the past year or so. I hate that I come home looking forward more to when I can get that bottle open than to playing with my kids. I hate that I spend so much time just THINKING about alcohol or, gasp, the absence of it.
Will I be able to forgive myself?