Tuffgirl is right it does get better. It's only when I decided on NO CONTACT that I was able to start to think clearly again. Believe me the first two months were awful spent most of it under a duvet cover crying. Could not face the world. Now 4 months down the line, yes it still hurts, and yes I still cry now and again, but its not because I miss him its more to do with why the heck did I waste 6 years of my life with him. Stupid stupid me!!!