I"m sorry you are going through it. They all seem to turn the tables on us when they are sick. Don't listen, you know the truth and don't think about it too much ( I know how hard that is). It's really messes with your head when they turn all mean like that but remember he's not a rational person when he's using. Keep the phone on silent. This is the choice that he made to use and none of that is your fault.