The pain is getting progressively worse. It's starting to affect every day activities like getting out of bed and getting dressed. NSAIDs are not doing anything. I'm probably not able to get surgery until January because all of the good surgeons are booked up.
My psychiatrist is recommending a low dose of opiates to deal with the pain until I can have surgery. He knows I'm in recovery (he helped me get into rehab). But he says the pain will eat me alive. When he made his recommendation, I started to cry. I don't want to take the pills. I don't want to relapse on alcohol or get hooked on opiates. If I relapse with alcohol, I'll probably be dead within days. But I don't know how I'll be able to make it until January.
I'm having a consult with the surgeon on Thursday. I'm scared.