It is so much easier to blame it on them, hell even the drugs. They you don't have to do any work and can stay safe in a world of denial. Change sucks, the work sucks, but it is the only way to find peace and freedom. And you do deserve to live a peaceful life free of confusion and chaos.
It makes you feel better to hear what others have been through because then you don't feel so isolated and alone, so naive and lost. We all have been there at some point in our lives some on both sides of the fence.
You will be ok.
Hang in there.