I did call a couple other doctors but none of them returned my call. I know how you feel about the guilt part. I feel the same way. I can't believe i got myself into this situation to begin with. As for the pm, he more talked at me than to me. Anyways, we'll see how it goes. I dated a guy for a while that was extremely addicted to anything he could get his hands on. When I broke up with him he was taking about 40 10mg tabs a day and more if he could get it and I never touched it at the time and never wanted to