Think it's been building up for a week or so after the initial withdraws I felt good and was thinking positive looking for new things to do reading my self help and recovery books avidly even bought new work out gear.
I got complacent started to feel sorry for myself (boo poor me) depression set in stopped reading the books and just moped around the house like a wet blanket.
The wine did not help it was horrible after about 10min I just got really depressed it wasn't worth it at all. But I still carried on and drank the bottle talk about self destructive mode.
I need to work on stress relief going to look for some yoga and meditation DVDs and not just talk about I will do this actually do it.