It's great to see you back here Poppies. You sound ready this time.
I was like you - would get feeling good & then sabotage myself once again. I guess I always expected to somehow control it each time. I never set out to get wasted, just relaxed. It took me too long to admit it never worked out that way. Each time I picked up it led to a terrible ending. It was less exhausting to let go of it for good. You can do it Poppies.
