Acheleus, I was really out of it for the first two weeks. Hang in there. I constantly remind myself that figuring out who I am now is a process, and it isn't going to happen in a week, a month or even year. It does seem pretty bleak sometimes, for sure.
Least, I feel that too. Time spent living with self-respect is healing.
I never imagined that I would be at the end of my 20's with this past weighing on me. While I was drinking, I knew that if I quit that I would have to examine my life. And it didn't seem like there was a point, because things could never be "reset." I couldn't take anything back. Now I am just grateful that things are a bit easier and I have the chance to change.