Relapsed on my addiction to AH
Maybe the letter I wrote previously to my AH was a negotiation letter.
I'm not going to let him be homeless because he is saying all the right things.
This will be the third chance in three years.
I hope that he proves the right things with his actions.
I can't turn on him when he's trying to get better.
He promises to keep going to therapy once a week and stay on the medication he's been prescribed.
I'm not sure this is the right choice. But it's my choice.
He also get's out on a Wednesday and that's the night of his home meeting and told me he would like to go.
I have been really torn up about my choice to NOT let him home. It didn't feel good or right.
I was basically doing it to force in-patient care. Trying to control his recovery. Which is a big no-no.
I told him as long as I know he's sober he can stay.
Please don't judge me as some idiot. I love this man. We have been through 12 years together. It's not easy to just throw him away when he's sober and wanting to make himself better.