How can someone tell u they love u and lie to your face, how can they be so sweet and caring and loving and then do **** that is so hurtful. I am so angry for giving so may chances like the bible says, so angry at me for believing the lies. I just want to find him and pummel his ass. I am working the steps to healing me. I am in the anger. I want to find the best in people. I read about being the fixer. I do what I need to for me. I try not to get involved in others problems. I take care of me and my kids but when I don't want help , I get told I need to accept what people want to offer. I try not to get wrapped up in financial stuff, I figure I pay my bills u pay yours. But if some asks for m y advice I will sometimes give it. Thinking of everything that comes out of my face.
I feel like I'm dammed if I do and if I don't. I'm a nurse people ask me **** all the time.
I'm so confused.
20 days and no contact.
