I've pretty much been drunk on and off for 18 years. The first one gets you. It's that first damned drink. After that, as you know, all bets are off. The peeling skin, the acne rosatia, you look like ****, you feel worse than that....It really is a moment by moment deal. God gives us drunks some extra graces I think. He knows we are addicted. And those of us who try to quit are helped from Above. Keep trying. The only losers are the ones who stay down. If you stay down, you are sure to die. If you get back up, you have a chance at living.