I too use to wonder were folks went when I'd first
see them at meetings then they wouldn't return.
I often heard thru out the yrs. that many show
up with the desire to stop but to only return to
the insanity of the addiction.
Those that stop doing whatever it takes to learn
to stay sober a day at a time, go to any lengths,
simply so back out.
I wonder if others think that of me who haven't
seen me in my face to face meetings in a while.
But then, I needn't need to worry what others
think about me, because, I am doing whatever
I need to do to remain sober in a program of
recovery that is working well for me today.
No, im not gonna rest lightly on my recovery.
If I decide to do that then i'll revert back to
old thinking, old habits, then BOOM...!!! I may
find myself wondering down the liquor, "poison"
isle at Walmart loading up to drink myself into
oblivion. And at 23 yrs sober, one drink will
never be enough because when that little tiger
that has been asleep for 23 yrs. wakes up, he
wont be purring. He will be rip roaring, clawing
it's way out of me and destroying anything and
everything in it's path.
Total destruction then death.
Na, I think i'll remain right where I am, here
in SR or where ever I need to be to continue
passing on my own ESH- experiences, strengths
and hopes of what my life was and is like before,
during and after alcohol.
I may not share everyday here in SR, but im here
pretty much all the time, connected. This place, for
today, is my lifeline to living a happy, sober, honest
life in recovery.
