Keep at it Marty, don't give up. An AA meeting is a good idea, but it sounds like you may need some help with a medical detox. If you've been drinking for 8 years and if you need to drink in the morning, detoxing on your own can be very dangerous. I suggest seeing your doctor ASAP. If your situation is really bad you may need a stint in rehab, but if that's what it takes to stay sober, then so be it.
At the very least keep posting here. If you want sobriety bad enough, you can have it. But it takes time and effort. Just remember, we are all stronger than we think.
FYI you may want to Google for information on medical detox units in your area.