Marty,
I had the same shakes and drink to stop them every morning and drank from there 24/7. I detested what I was doing too. And what I had become. You did better than me, I couldn't get past skipping the scotch in my first coffee and celebrating my victory over alcohol with a double dose in my second coffee, if I could keep it down long enough to stop shaking and retching.
I needed a jump start desperately and my doc strongly urged me not to go it alone and risk seizures.
I am not rich and then I found a seven day in hospital medical detox I qualified for with the VA, checked myself in, and never looked back. That was three years ago last month.
Yes, there were months of strange feelings, elation and pink cloud interspersed with some anxiety. Bowel extremes of none to too much, extreme situational awareness. But all that was easier to get through. Check around for any local in hospital programs.
Get back if you can, before you run out of tomorrows to quit on.