Hi Trisha, welcome, and thank you for having the courage to share your story warts and all. Congratulations on your first 50 days.
I am a 50 year old gran, I never realised until I found SR how many 'normal' people were drunks! I spend a lot of time in the '1 years and Under' group, plenty of people with a world of experience to share and understand. I wish you continuing success in your sobriety, spend some time visiting different threads, til you find some that make you feel warm and cozy!! Look forward to seeing you soon.