Maybe I am more angry with myself than with him. I think I am still experiencing some PTSD. I know this anger is a clue. Letting go was really only the first step. Yesterday, I went out and spent time alone in nature, in a place of unimaginable beauty and serenity. The result was real inner peace and then I returned to the city and the frenetic energy returned. I wonder how to create that within regardless of my environment.