What made you start drinking in 2012? Just wondering becuz I didn't start really drinking till I was about 45, I'm now 47, and like you it quickly spiraled down hill. In fact, your story is a lot like mine except I drank at home. My 2 boys also witnessed some terrible things (they're 21 and 18) and were in a state of shock, I think, becuz their mother, who had never really been a drinker and who they could always trust and reply on quickly turned into this out-of-control drunk who ended up in rehab and I couldn't explain why. Sorry, rambling...Welcome! This is a great support system..we have all been there to one degree or another.