HI ctopanga, you are not alone. I'm glad you're finding comfort on this site. I have as well. Addiction is so confusing. I'm really glad to hear you are seeking counseling to assist you through this. I'm also glad you're boyfriend is in rehab. If he is ready to receive the information he will learn some great tools to incorporate into his life. Only time will tell...watch his actions vs just listening to his words. You don't have to make any decisions now regarding the future...just take it is day at a time. Keep working on you...it is time well spent. Welcome to the forum...