Hi broke, welcome! I've been around the site quite a bit for several years but not actively posting for a long time. You sound a lot like me - I struggle with a lot of anxiety too, and also haven't told anyone in my "real life" that I have a problem. I made lots of great friends here over the years, many of which I have also connected with over email and facebook. It makes a huge difference as long as I keep up with those connections.