TR - I remember that anxiety well. I wanted to just climb out of my skin and I was convinced the feelings would never end.
I may be wrong, but I was thinking when you first came here, money wasn't so much of an issue. Now, it's becoming more and more an issue. I just remember praying that you didn't have to sink as far as I did to decide I'd had enough.
Bottom line, it's a progressive thing. If you're not blowing money on it, you're anxious as hell, trying to figure out how to get more and not go bankrupt.
You've gotten a lot of good suggestions. What you are feeling is just that - a feeling. If you give in? Well, you're going to feel even worse when you stop again. I was darned near suicidal.
I know you can do this.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy