Originally Posted by
FourSeasons 
Hi Ncognito... Don't beat yourself up. You did what you felt like you had to do in order to secure a better professional and financial life yourself. Now since you have the job, don't drink. Don't go back. It is not worth it to you in the long term. Make this new job part of your new sober life! And, stay close to SR!
That's the thing. I don't want to drink. I know how I was before. An isolated drunk that only left to get more beer. I only did it because I needed this job.