Hi,
I have been on subs for most of this year, obtaining illegally at first, now I've been with my Dr. for about 5 months. My support system basically consists of my Dr, my Dad, and I go to some NA meetings and IOP groups, (but I have been struggling with social anxiety since I was a preteen so I don't get as much from these groups as I wish I couild), and now here in this forum. My Dr. has told me how great I am doing, he has told my Dad also. My Dad assumes he knows everything and doesn't understand why I cant just stop subs, why I'm detoxing during my taper etc, and basically expects me to function like everyone else, not like someone in recovery learning and trying to make it through ech day.
Here is where I need advice, are there any websites or booklets or brochures that aren't overwhelming but can deliver to him and maybe get through to him about the reality of recovery? I will never use again, but his constantly telling me I'm not doing enough, not good enough, really makes me wish I could go numb again... especially where he is basically the biggest support in my life right now... My husband is in jail, I may be facing jail time, I haven't had my kids at all this year and barely get to see them even tho I have been clean for most of this year.. I guess I kinda got off track here... I understand the whole it doesn't happen overnight thing, but everyone in my life expects me to be superwoman overnight and I guess the work I have done being belittled hurts.. so yeah, where is the best, easiest to digest info out there for families? He does try, he just doesn't understand. Best part is he has been an alcoholic my whole life but he won't ever admit it or see it. Actually half my family is like that. That kind of makes it harder to be judged by them, I'm horrible because I used opiates not alcohol?
Sorry for ranting, just frustrated, and this taper from 8 mg to 6 mg is kicking my butt pretty good :/
Thanks fort reading my not very well thought out post
