My Mind is at War - here's what I am doing
The Past: My mind is at war and I can’t control my actions; including drinking; thinking; emotions because I can’t control my thoughts. And my old thoughts have been playing over and over in my head for 20 plus years. My thoughts have controlled my actions and my actions have created a mess in my life. The problem is I don’t know what to do even though I want to change. So I need a battle plan; new weapons to save me from my thinking.
So what do I do? Well I go to meetings and listen; I make notes to review later; I am reading the Big Book and other literature & praying. I use tools that I learn like being grateful. In prayer I come to my higher power and ask for help all day long not just once in the morning. For example, it could be as simple as saying thy will be done. I reach out and try to grow my connections and relationships. If I don’t allow my higher power (God) to control my will and life, then it’s game over.