Thank you all for the encouragement. I made it through the night and did wake this morning feeling somewhat proud of the small victory. I do think of all of the events and obstacles ahead and it still seems overwhelming, so I try to remind myself to just focus on today. I can already see positive changes as a result of a clear mind and, frankly, boredom. (i.e. i would have never chosen to go jogging when I could just have a drink instead)
It means a lot to know that total strangers all over the world have the same struggles and thought processes, and care enough to log on and offer encouragement. This is an amazing online community here and I appreciate the support.