I have dreams occasionally where my AM and I have knock-down-drag-out fights where she wins. She makes me feel so stupid and insignificant, and I scream and scream til I'm.blue in the face... but nobody reacts to help me. Everyone sides with her because I'm so horrible. Sometimes I get violent and throw things at her while she's making fun of me and embarrassing me in front of the whole family. Yep, 20-some-odd years of living with an alcoholic parent will *$@! you up in so many ways.