It is an illusion. What you're really missing is getting drunk, saying or doing inappropriate things,sleeping badly, waking up feeling rough, sick, headachey, dry mouth,full of shame,regrets,anger,fear etc. Not much fun really
I know it is hard early on.I got sober 2 weeks before Chrsitmas so missed all the apparent fun at parties,Christmas day,boxing day,NYE,all the hols etc with everyone drinking and me sober. I didn't really enjoy them,thought it was boring BUT it was the first boxing day and NY day I'd woken up with peace of mind not worrying about what I'd said and done,no regrets and feeling well.I also learnt that it wasn't boredom I just had no idea how to enjoy myself sober. I've learnt how to and now enjoy things peacefully not high drama all the time. It does happen and it will happen to you too.
You're obviously committed to sobriety by avoiding trigger sitautions which is a brilliant start. be proud of yourself and know youwon't have a hangover tomorrow
