Well at least for me... this is my opinion:
If anyone stands between me and my drug they are my enemy. LMN you are fearfully and wonderfully made. I am so sorry about your situation.
Its just the devil. The devil hates the light. I believe that it is the enemy with him that is being mean. The devil is mean to all of gods children. I pulled away from everyone who had the light in them this summer =[ I believe it is spiritual warfare. You sound like you have some tough armor LMN. Hugs.