Thank you all for your kind words. I would love nothing more than to be able to go to these type of events and actually feel happy and content (instead of always pretending that I am). I guess the question is... how am I going to make that happen?
I think, as a first step, I will pick up some books on meditation and recovery. I am also going to attend my regional addictions counselling centre.
I actually told the person that I was supposed to go to the wedding with that I could not attend (the dinner/dance part). He was mad and didn't understand why. To think I used to date him... which is why I said yes. When we were together, he was sober. I guess things have changed...
I also think I'll make more of an effort to post on here more.. I may need some help with that. I tend to focus on recovery only when I need it, and forget about it when I 'feel better'.
Today has been a better day.
