I feel the same way. I've had some unfortunate events due to my alcoholic behavior..... Mostly embarrassment and shame. There have been some more tangible things like a broken leg, flirting with inappropriate people, a fight or two, seeing my daughter less than I used to etc. I feel like If I keep devouring drinks all weekend, it's a matter of time before something really messed up happens I Basically at a point where I know someday that some event will inevitably cause me to quit. Why wait for that event to happen and just get out while you can. I have a chance now while I'm somewhat unscathed. God bless you.