Just got back in from the SNAP office, i got approved and because i dont have a job i qualified to have it expedited and got approved instantly. My card should be in this time next week so that is awesome news. Still nothing from the local outreach lady, i am going to try calling her back after lunch. I have a list of local al anon meetings, its hard for me to go because i dont have much help childcare wise and i dont think i would want to take her with me but maybe i can work something out eventually.
Its weird, i feel good for the most part. Very productive and i know i am doing what i have to do to protect me and her but i keep having to fight off these waves of nervousness and stomach turning anxiety like i am doing something wrong. I think it is just his non sense trying to work its way into my head. I am really shocked that it is so engrained in me to do what i think he would think is right. Pretty sad.