I have been feeling the same way lately. It's only been a few months since I stopped denying the seriousness of my AH's addictions, and throughout this time I have spent massive amounts of time reading recovery literature, on sites like this, writing in my journal, etc. Sometimes I feel like I need to step back and just take care of my day-to-day life...but on the other hand I think it is good for me right now to fill my mind with these new ideas, ideas of recovery, of independence, of strength, of detachment, of hope for me...so that I don't fall back into old patterns of thought which I held for many years.
My thoughts and beliefs about my marriage have pretty much done a 180 in the past few months, and I feel good about it. I no longer feel powerless over my own destiny - I realize now I don't have to let him have control over my life and that of our children - and I want to stay on that path. So I keep coming here!
