Great to see you flujays! I do hope you'll stay with us & keep posting. Glad you came back - proud of you for reaching out and wanting to make this change.
I remember the 'I can just have one' way of thinking. Can you believe it kept me drinking for decades? I was a slow learner. I never had just one in my life! In the end no amount was enough to achieve the numbness I was looking for. What a sad & terrible waste of life. You don't need it. You can get free.