A lot of us feel apathy when we drink again, free2Bsober13. I know I did.
It was like I was resigning myself to being a screw up.
You don't have to resign yourself to anything - it can take a great amount of effort to break that kind of fatalistic 'whatever will be will be' apathy, but you can do it
So you don't have any support right now apart from SR?
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