And I can tell you because none of you will call and have me committed.
I'm not losing my mind. I'm not a danger to anyone. Scout's honors.
But some times, some days, I can get this feeling of utter unreality.
I did when I was married to an A, too.
Then, I would feel like "this must be a nightmare because there is no way my life can be this miserable" -- and I think it was a coping mechanism of some kind.
Now, I can get panic attacks and think "this is probably just a dream and I will wake up and still be married to AXH." It's like I don't feel like I deserve the life I have without him. (YES I'm struggling with keeping the kids' heads above water but holy mackerel, it's SUCH an incredible difference living without addiction & abuse!)
Can anyone relate?