You are not a bad person -- do not feel shame. The people who took advantage of you are the bad people. Wanting love is a great thing as you know that although we love alcohol it does not love us back...so reject it along with those people that put you in a bad place. Here you will find that we all have stories of regret and mis-adventure, and we are all united in that we know it is NOT us...but rather an alcohol distorted version of us. Welcome and know that no matter what happens...you are welcome here.