It's the times that I had "just one" that were giving me pause.
It's not just you....I think most of us fight that fight. Some really intelligent people hang on to those times when drinking didn't get them into trouble. Despite incident upon incident where drinking leads to negative consequences it is amazing how we hang onto those few "in spite of" moments.
And that is where it gets tricky, because when we start feeling better, which set of consequences does the mind of alcoholic go to? The times where we don't have something disastrous happen.