rome wasnt burnt in a day either. It takes a long time for us to screw our selves up it can take a while to heal ourselves too but in time we can all get better and heal. Its amazing how the body can work.
I'm not much older then you I got a carreer a wife kids a home etc... by many peoples standards i've made something of myself etc.. And yeah i guess i have but it is not all its cracked up to be. I see your in ireland I could also sit here and be upset and feel bad that I have never been there and would love to go there. I'll probably never get to go to a place like that. You living there might be thinking whats so grand about ireland?
Sometimes its just our perspective is off and we need to focus on what we have and be greatful. Its easier to be greatful and thankful.
hang in there it will get better.