Originally Posted by ScottFromWI

You are investing a lot of your emotional energy currently by figuring out ways to drink and feeling bad about it afterwards. How about just re-applying some of it towards finding a way to NOT drink? Or maybe an AA or NA meeting? Maybe a call to a local addiction center or counselor? It sounds like you are spending a lot of time drinking too, maybe start by investing one of those drinking hours into a sober hour?

At this point the consequences of your drinking aren't registering anymore, so it's got to come from within.