Somebody Wake me When this is Over!
Had a tough week last week. Drank most of the day Monday, nothing Tuesday, drank heavy Wednesday, all day Thursday, nothing Friday, all afternoon and night Saturday, and a half pint on Sunday evening. Physically, I don't feel too terrible, but I'm an emotional wreck. I haven't exercised since last Tuesday, and exercise is such a benefit for me. I feel completely worthless, and my nerves are so on edge, that if I hear a pin drop I feel like I'm going to scream. Having that said, it was nearly impossible to be a good husband and father this weekend. Kids wanting to play, be silly, etc, made me feel like I was going to lose it.
I know if I get a few days under my belt that I can get my sobriety back, but starting out feels like trying to find the beginning of a circle. Lately, I don't know what to think. I don't have the emotional energy right now to invest in myself. I know I need to regroup and make a change, but I don't know where to turn. . .