Thank you to everyone who took the time to respond. My task for today will be to go to a meeting. I need this. I am scared. This is my bottom. I had night sweats all night, dizzy brain, and insomnia. I really don't have the courage to walk back into out patient and can not do inpatient because of work commitments. I thank God I joined this site last night. I will be checking in everyday. It will take me some time to learn to navigate this site tho. I really appreciate all of your feedback. I am in pain and have many issues I need to deal with.