Welcome TL33, I know you've tried detox/rehab before we're you ready? I think if you're here you are. Get yourself a concrete plan for today. At the top of that plan is two things. Make an appointment with GP. Give them full disclosure of drinking history. And get a list of several therapists. You sound like you're carrying around a whole lot of pain. With no real coping mechanisms. We all understand how frieghtening and overwhelming this is. Use this site often to unload get hope and to help us.
Reaching out here today can help you to finally get it together
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