RJY - It's done and over with. You learned something valuable. It's the same lesson I had to learn over & over for years - a drink = danger & an unpredictable outcome. Terrible things happened every time I was fool enough to believe I had any control. Not a sip can pass my lips - ever. I promise there is life after alcohol - a happy and free one. You can do this.
Glad you wanted to come here & talk it over. We all care about you. This too shall pass and a better day is coming.