I have those nights too. Hugs. It sounds to me like you did the best thing. Got into bed with a book and some tea and shared honestly here. It's a gift to others to let them know they are not the only one's feeling lost or discouraged.
I find it a blessing that the only life I am required to live or can live is my own. I'm glad you're here. I'm glad you and I both are sober. Some days life just feels sad and scary.