Originally Posted by
ReadyAndAble 
All that failure nonsense is just part of the addiction, one of the ways it tries to pull you back in. Yes, you've got a serious addiction, and it's going to take some serious commitment to kick it (and serious thought to that lingering question of a plan). But the good news is you're alive, you're here, and you still have most of your life ahead of you.
Good for you, stopping the slide before it went further.
Good to see you back and willing to give it another go. I know you've tried lots, but how about picking one method and sticking with it? Post frequently, let us know how it's progressing. That way, you're not only helping yourself, but will be inspiring others along the way.
As RAA says...you have the rest of your life ahead of you. Time to stop thinking of the past and focus on your future. By the time you get to my age you could have 17 years of sobriety...
Best wishes to you x