with every relapse you learn and build. My relapses have been important as I have learnt how important self awareness becomes, how you feel and be able to deal with this before picking up the drink. I was told, the last thing we do, if pick up the drink. There was a lot of crap leading to this drink that wasn't dealt with. I already knew well in advance I was going to relapse and planned it. Remember, your sobriety date starts over, but you don't. You are learning and building. The key: don't give up. Who cares, 5 days of drinking...you probably dranks for year. Get healthy and get plugged into recovery. Recovery is daily so make sure every day you are expose to recovery...meetings, the web, reading Big Book, reading about others in recovery, hand out with people in recovery. Get in the middle of the boat so when the sea get rough, you don't fall off...take care!