I am so new and only a few days in after several of hundred dollar weeks of doing the same thing and then broke having to lie to loved ones to either get another bottle or keep the lights on...I am trying my hardest and determined to beat this beast!!! I keep this site (SR) up almost 24 hours a day, even when I am in the bed, in case I wake up and just read the threads, I don't usually comment as I am so new but can relate to your pain.....when it gets so bad I need one on one I go to chat...that helps me a lot as well...I wish you the best....