Originally Posted by
Dee74 
Welcome to SR.
I'm not even sure whether addiction comes into this, it just sounds like a very dysfunctional relationship all round.
I think it's very clearly time for you to move on blueheart.
you might want to think about leaving some of the more graphic stuff out in future too - I'm not sure it was integral to the story and you'll get more responses if you leave it out I think?
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Right now im keep thinking about what he said to me that i am the one f** the relationship up. i did wrong by snooped on him. i am not deserve him. all these things are eating me up .