Its pretty real when you sober up. But it would be worse continuing to create the alcoholic carnage that we do. I maintain that I will now feel my stuff but I cant change a thing - so Im not going to carry the shame, I have enough baggage, I don't need another 10 suitcases. I am a good person who has done terrible things in my addiction - we all do. We have to feel it but not get stuck in it.
Hard to do when you not use to feeling authentically. It floods us like a fire hose on full pressure... it does even out... congratulations... be kind to yourself. That's who you were drinking, not now and not sober
