Sunflower,
I made the promise of my A never seeing me cry again, too. I made it about 15 years ago. Yes, 15....I've kept the promise too.
That is the bad news. I't is bad because I went from him never seeing me cry, to refusing to cry. It has caused me to be a bitter, angry, witch. Don't forget to allow others to see you cry if you need to. Or, cry in your pillow.
Be well, hugs, and please keep coming back.